So today I waltzed into my work full of misplaced bravado and egomaniacal justification over telling them to shove what was going on where the sun don’t shine.
Yet, the manager I was reporting to wasn’t there so I quickly made notes to fill in my co-workers on what I was doing and how to carry on. They really don’t have to do anything. I wasn’t going to leave them in the lurch, dumping my workload on them cause I couldn’t handle my misanthrope of a manager. I wandered over to the admin assistant who’d been very helpful and handed her my security pass. She looked slightly confused and questioned if she had misunderstood my contract end date. When I informed her I was ending it earlier now that everything had been taken care of, well something very justifying occured. She smiled and said
“You’re leaving becaue of [manager’s name] aren’t you?”
Sometime when I take these positions I really wonder if it’s me. If I’m the one that’s a fault. Not being able to mold myself to their leadership style. Not being open to learning what type of personallity and leader they are and working with that. So on the occasions, and really there have been more then I’d like to admit, when I have had to walk away early I feel really bad. It’s not something I do lightly and most of the time it’s after wrestling with my conscious for some time. So hearing those words and seeing that knowing smile of I-know-she’s-a-raving-lunatic-too was just a relief. It’s also something that I pass on to the agency when they ask why I’m no longer on the assignment.
So another bridge burned, well not really. Not having the manager around was probably a very good thing, it avoided my saying anything to her that I might regret.
Mindstream
